I know that feeling of 'lump in the throat' and I can
authoritatively confirm that it happens and you feel it physically. A huge
painful lump that just wouldn't go down.
I love you Boo, you sure
are my angel sent from above and like Train said in OUR song, ‘Forever is not
too long for me and together is not too close’ I'm ready to take the 'forever' walk with you.
I had that feeling a couple of years ago when something
horribly painful and unexpected happened to me. Tears wouldn't take it away,
neither would my resolution to move on, so I came to accept that the lump was
always going to be there along with a painful ache, that feeling of a deep hole
somewhere in my heart which was always just at the background as well as the feeling
that something was missing which was never ever going to be found.
Time did lighten it a bit though, but not entirely but sometime
last year, I met someone who brought back genuine laughter into my life.
It didn't seem like he was doing much good at the time
because I didn’t even know I still had the lump neither did I realize that the
deep hole was still just there. I didn’t know I needed healing neither did I
know that I was being gradually healed. I just went along with it, enjoying the
moment with him.
A few days ago, precisely on Saturday, the 4th
day of August, 4 days after our 7th month dating anniversary, he did
something very significant and he made me cry. I cried so much and at the time,
I couldn't tell entirely why I was crying uncontrollably, until I finally stumbled
into THIS POST today.
I realize today that I cried, not only for a lost friend
whom I greatly missed and wished she was alive to share my joy but also, the relieving
feeling of the lump melting away, the hole filling up and that constant ache being
patched. My tears were finally tears of relief and they thoroughly cleansed me.
Venue was Cactus, Victoria Island. The theme song was ‘Marry
me’ by Train.
I’ll advice you listen to that song, it’s one of the most
powerful and most beautiful love songs for proposal that I’ve ever heard. I don’t
know how my fiancé (it feels nice to call him that) selected it but it has
become my all time favorite song.
Awwwww this is truly sweet Yimi. Wish u both a world of happiness cos u both deserve it. Love u both
ReplyDeleteWow!! That's all i can say! truly never knew of this 'lump'. Although i've seen these pictures before...they even look lovelier now! Always n forever.....#OAB
ReplyDeleteawww that lump.. very happy for you dear. All the best.
ReplyDeleteBokesh, Congrats! Please throw a mini party for us your well wishers!
ReplyDelete@Diran, thanks. How have U been?
DeleteTony and Tonia sitting in cactus K-I-S-S-I-N-G.
ReplyDeleteyou guys know I love you na, so i dont have to talk too much here.
congrats!
ReplyDeleteCongrats Onayimi!!! Wish you happy-ever-after!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful hand.
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